In
Honor and Memory of Fr. Pierre Demers
(談德義神父 1921
- 2002)
The Mourners
by Bernard Malamud
Kessler, formerly an
egg
candler,1 lived alone on social security.2
Though past sixty-five, he might have found well-paying work with more
than one butter and egg wholesaler, for he sorted and graded3
with speed and accuracy, but he was a quarrelsome type and considered a
trouble maker, so the wholesalers did without hom. Therefore,
after a time he retired, living with few wants4
on his old-age
pension.5 Kessler
ingabited a small cheap flat6 on
the top floor of a decrepit
tenement7 on the East Side.8
Perhaps because he lived above so many stairs, no one bothered to visit
him. He was much alone, as he had been most of his
life. At one time he'd had a family, but unable to stand his
wife or children, always in his way, he had after some years walked out on
them.9 He never saw them
thereafter, because he never sought them, and they did not seek
him. Thirty years and passed. He had no idea where
they were, nor did he think much about it.
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In the tenement,
although he had lived there ten years, he was more or less
unknown. The tenants10
on both sides of his flat on the fifth floor, an
Italian family of three middle-aged sons and their wizened mother,11
and a sullen,12
childless German couple named Hoffman, never said hello to him, nor did
he greet any of them of the way up or down the narrow wooden
stairs. Others of the house recognized Kessler when they
passed him in the street, but they thought he lived elsewhere on the
block. Ignace, the small, bent-back janitor,13
knew him best, for they had several times played two-handed pinochle;14
but Ignace, usually the loser because he lacked skill at cards, had
stopped going up after a time. He complained to his wife that
ge couldn't stand the stink there, that the filthy15
flat with its junky furniture16
made him sick. The janitor had spread the word about Kessler
to the others on the floor, and they shunned17
him as a dirty old man. Kessler understood this but had
contempt for them all.
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One day Ignace and
Kessler began a quarrel over the way the egg
candler piled oily bags overflowing with garbage into the dumb-waiter,18
instead of using a pail. One word shot off another,19
and they were soon calling
each ther savage names,20 when
Kessler slammed the door in the janitor's face. Ignace ran
down five flights of stairs and loudly cursed out the old man to his impassive wife.21
It happened that Gruber, the landlord, a fat man with a consistently
worried face, who wore
yards of baggy clothes,22 was in
the building, making
a check of plumbing repairs,23 and
to him the enraged Ignace related the trouble he was having with
Kessler. He described, holding his nose, the smell in
Kessler's flat, and called him the
dirtiest person he had ever seen. Gruber knew his janitor was
exaggerating, but he felt burdened by financial worries which shot his blood
pressure up to astonishing heights,24
so he settled it quickly by saying, “Give him notice.”25
None of the tenants
in the house had held a written
lease26 since the war, and Gruber
felt confident, in case somebody asked questions, that he could easily
justify his desmissal27
of Kessler as an undesirable tenant. It had occurred to him
that Ignace could then slap a cheap coat of paint28
on the walls and the flat would be let29
to someone for five dollars more than the old man was paying.
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That night after
supper, Ignace victoriously ascended the stairs and knocked on
Kessler's door. The egg
candler opened it, and seeing who stood there, immediately
slammed it shut. Ignace shouted through the door, “Mr. Gruber
says to give notice. We don't want you around here.
Your dirt stinks
the whole house.”30 There
was silence, but Ignace waited, relishing31
what he had said. Although after five minuted he still heard
no sound, the janitor stayed there, picturing32
the old Jew trembling behind the locked door. He spoke again,
“You
got two weeks' notice till the first,33 then you better
move out or Mr. Gruber and myself will throw you out.” Ignace
watched as the door slowly opened. TO his surprise he found
himself frightened at the old man's appearance. He looked, in
the act of opening the door, like a corpse adjusting his coffin lid.34
But if he appeared dead, his voice was alive. It rose
terrifyingly harsh from his throat, and he sprayed curses35
over all the years of Ignace's life. His eyes were reddened,
his cheeks sunken, and his wisp of beard36
moved agitatedly. He seemed to be losing weight as he
shouted. The janitor no longer had any heart for the matter,37
but he could not bear so many insults all at once so he cried out, “You
dirty old
bum,38 you better get out and don't
make so much trouble.” To this the enraged Kessler swore they
would first have to kill him and drag him out dead.
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On the morning of
the first of December, Ignace found in his letter box a soiled folded
paper containing Kessler's twenty-five dollars. He showed it
to Gruber that evening when the landlord came to collect the rent
money. Gruber, after a minute of absently contemplating the money,39
frowned disgustedly.
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“I thought I told
you to give notice.”
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“Yes Mr. Gruber,”
Ignace agreed. “I gave him.”
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“That's helluva40
chuzpah,”41
said Gruber. “Gimme42
the keys.”
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Ignace brought the
ring of pass
keys,43 and Gruber, breathing
heavily, began the
lumbering climb up the long avenue of stairs.44
Although he rested on each landing,45
the fatigue of climbing, and his profuse flowing perspiration,46
heightened his irritation.
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Arriving at the top
floor he banged his fist on Kessler's door. “Gruber, the
landlord. Open up here.”
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There was no answer,
no mevement within, so Gruber inserted the key into the lock and
twisted. Kessler had barricaded the door47
with a chest48
and some chairs. Gruber had to put his shoulder to the door
and shove before be could step into the hallway of the badly-lit two
and a half room flat. The old man,
his face drained of blood, was standing in the kitchen doorway.
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“I warned you to scram
outa here,”49 Gruber said loudly. “Move out or
I'll telephone the city marshal.”
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“Mr. Gruber-“ began
Kessler.
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“Don't bother me with your lousy excuses, just beat it.”50 He gazed
around. “It looks like a junk shop51 and it smells like
a toilet. It'll take me a month to clean up here.”
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“This smell is only
cabbage that I am cooking for my supper. Wait, I'll open a
window and it will go away.”
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“When you go awsy,
it'll go away.” Gruber took out his bulky wallet,52 counted out
twelve dollars, added fifty cents, and plunked53 the money on top of
the chest.
“you got two more weeks till the fifteenth, then you gotta be out or I
will get a dispossess.54
Don't talk back talk. Get outa here and go somewhere that
they don't know you and maybe you'll get a place.”
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“No, Mr.Gruber,”
Kessler cried passionately. “I didn't do nothing, and I will
stay here.”
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“Don't monkey55
with my blood pressure,” said Gruber. “If you're not out by the
fifteenth, I will personally throw you on your bony ass.”56
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Then he left and
walked heavily down the stairs.
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The fifteenth came and Ignace found the twelve fifty in his letter
box. He telephoned Gruber and told him.
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“I'll get a dispossess,”
Gruber shouted. He instructed the janitor to write out a note
saying to Kessler that his money was refused and to stick it under his
door.57 This Ignace
do. Kessler returned the money to the letter box but again
Ignace wrote a note and slipped it, with the money, under the old man's
door.
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After another day
Kessler received a copy of his eviction notice.58 It
said to appear in court on Friday at 10A.M. to show cause why he should
not be evicted for continued neglect and destruction of rental
property.59 The official notice filled Kessler
with great fright because he had never in his life been to
court. He did not appear on the day he had been ordered to.
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That same afternoon
the marshal appeared with two brawny assistants.60
Ignace opened Kessler's lock for them and as they pushed their way into
the flat, the janitor hastily ran
down the stairs to hide in the cellar. Despite Kessler's wailing and carrying
on,61 the two assistants
methodically removed his meager
furniture62 and set it out on the
sidewalk. After that they got Kessler out, though they had to
break open the bathroom door because the old man had locked himself in
there. He shouted, struggled, pleaded with his neighbors to
help him, but they looked on in a silent group outside the
door. The two assistants, holding the old man tightly by the
arms and skinny legs, carried him, kicking and moaning, down the
stairs. They sat him in the street on a chair amid his
junk. Upstairs, the marshal bolted the door with a lock
Ignace had supplied, signed a paper which he handed to the janitor's
wife, and then drove off in an automobile with his assistants.
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Kessler sat on a
split chair on the sidewalk. It was raining and the rain soon
turned to sleet,63
but he still sat there. People passing by skirted64
the pile of his belongings. They stared at Kessler and he
stared at nothing. He wore no hat or coat, and the snow fell
on him, making him look like a piece of his dispossessed goods.
Soon the wizened Italian woman from the top floor returned to the house
with two of her sons, each carrying a loaded shopping bag.
When she recognized Kessler sitting amid his furniture, she began to
shriek. She shrieked in Italian at Kessler although he paid
no attention to her. She stood on the stoop,65
shrunken, gesticulating with thin arms, her loose mouth working
angrily. Her sons tried to calm her, but still she
shrieked. Several of the neighbors came down to see who was making the racket.66
Finally, the two sons, unable to think what else to do, set down their
shopping bags, lifted Kessler out of the chair, and carried him up the
stairs. Hoffman, Kessler's other neighbor, working with a
small triangular
file,67 cut open the padlock,68
and Kessler was carried into the flat from which he had been
evicted. Ignace screeched69
at everybody, calling them filthy names, but the three men
went downstairs and hauled up Kessler's chairs, his broken table, chest, and
ancient metal bed. They piled all the furniture into the
bedroom. Kessler sat on the dege of the bed and
wept. After a while, after the old Italian woman had sent in
a soup plate full of hot macraoni70
seasoned71
with tomato sauce and grated
cheese,72 they left.
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Ignace phoned
Gruber. The landlord was eating and the food turned to lumps
in his throat. “I'll throw them all out, the bastards,” he
yelled. He put on his hat, got into his car and drove through
the slush73
to the tenement. All the time he was thinking of his worries: high
repair costs; it was hard to keep the place together; maybe the
building would someday collapse. He had read of such
things. All of a sudden the front of the building parted from
the rest and fell like a breaking wave into the street.
Gruber cursed the old man for taking him from his supper.
When he got to the house he snatched Ignace's keys and ascended the sagging stairs.74
Ignace tried to follow, but Gruber told him to stay the hell in his
hole. When the landlord was not looking, Ignace crept up
after him.
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Gruber turned the
key and let himself into Kessler's dark flat. He pilled the light chain
and found the old man sitting limply75on
the side of the bed. On the floor at his feet lay a plate of stiffened
macaroni.
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“What do you think
you're doing here?” Gruber thundered.
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The old man sat
motionless.
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“Don't you know it's
against the law? This is trespassing76and
you're breaking the law. Answer me.“
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Kessler remained
mute.
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Gruber mopped his
brow with a large yellowed handkerchief.
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“Listen, my friend,
you're gonna77make
lots of trouble for yourself. If they catch you in here you might go to
the workhouse.78 I'm
only trying to advise you. “
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To his surprise
Kessler looked at him with wet, brimming eyes. 79
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“What did I did to
you?” he bitterly wept. “Who throws out of his house a man that he lived there80ten
years and pays every month on time his rent?
81 What did I do, tell me? Who hurts a man without a
reason? Are you a Hitler or a Jew?” He was hitting his chest with
his fist.
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Gruber removed his
hat. He listened carefully, at first at a loss what to say, but then
answered: “Listen, Kessler, it's not personal. I own this house and
it's falling apart. My bills are sky high. If the tenants don't take care they
have to go. You don't take care and you fight with my janitor, so you
have to go. Leave in the morning, and I won't say another word. But if
you don't leave the flat, you'll get the heave-ho again. 82
I'll call the marshal.“
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“Mr. Gruber,“ said
Kessler, “I won't go. Kill me if you want it,
83 but I won't go.”
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Ignace hurried away from the door as Gruber left in anger. The next
morning, after a restless night of worries, the landlord set out to
drive to the city marshal's office. On the way he stopped at a candy
store for a pack of cigarettes, and there decided once more to speak to
Kessler. A thought had occurred to him: he would offer to get the old
man into a public
home. 84
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He drove to the
tenement and knocked on Ignace's door.
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“Is the old gink
85 still up there?”
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“I don't know if so,
86 Mr. Gruber.“ The janitor was ill at ease. 87
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“What do you mean
you don't know?”
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“I didn't see him go
out. Before, I looked in his keyhole but nothing moves.”
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“So why didn't you open the door with your key?”
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“I was afraid,”
Ignace answered nervously.
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“What
are you afraid?” 88
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Ignace wouldn't say.
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A fright went through Gruber but he didn't show it. He grabbed the keys
and walked ponderously
89 up the stairs, hurrying every
so often. 90
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No one answered his
knock. As he unlocked the door he broke into heavy sweat.
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But the old man was
there, alive, sitting without shoes on the bedroom floor.
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“Listen, Kessler,” said the landlord, relieved although his head pounded.91
“I got an idea that, if you do it the way I
say, your troubles are over.” 92
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He explained his
proposal to Kessler, but the egg
candler was not listening. His eyes were downcast, and his
body swayed slowly sideways. As the landlord talker on, the old man was
thinking of what had whirled through his mind as he had sat out on the
sidewalk in the falling snow. He had thought through his miserable
life, remem-bering how, as a young man, he had abandoned his family,
walking out on his wife and three innocent children, without even in
some way attempting to provide for them ; without, in all
the
intervening years93 -so God help him-once trying to discover if they were alive or
dead. How, in so short a lift, could a man do so much wrong? This
thought smote him to the heart94and
he recalled the past without end and moaned and tore at his flesh with
his fingernails.
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Gruber was frightened at the extent
of Kessler's suffering. Maybe I should let him stay, he thought. Then
as he watched the old man, he realized he was bunched up95there
on the floor engaged in an act of mourning.
96 There he sat, white from fasting,
97 rocking back and forth, his beard dwindled to a shade of itself.
98
Something's
wrong here
The
landlord was agonized. Sweating brutally, he felt an enormous
constricted weight100 in him that
slowly forced itself up, until his head was at the point of bursting.
For a full minute he
awaited a stroke; 101 but the
feeling painfully passed, leaving him miserable.
When
after a while, he gazed around the room, it was clean, drenched
in daylight and fragrance. 102
Gruber then suffered unbearable remorse for the way he had treated the
old man.
At last he could stand it no longer. With a cry of shame he tore the sheet off Kessler's bed, and
wrapping it around his bulk, 103
sank heavily to the floor and became a mourner. 104
-Gruber tired to imagine what and found it all oppressive.
99 He felt he ought to run out, get away, but then saw
himself fall and go tumbling down the five flights of stairs; he
groaned at the broken picture of himself lying at the bottom. Only he
was still there in Kessler's bedroom, listening to the old man praying.
Somebody's dead, Gruber muttered. He figured Kessler had got bad news,
yet instinctively knew he hadn't. Then it struck him with a terrible
force that the mourner
was mourning him: it was he who was dead.
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